wanderer03
Well-Known Member
As the subject reads, I feel like the square peg in the round hole being forced to conform to what society deems normal. At the end of the week, I'm left exhausted, angry, sad, and frustrated. On Fridays, after delivering a week's worth of customer service, it's as if I have no energy left whatsoever. It's an entire range of emotions and I know that rationally they don't make sense yet I feel them strongly. I guess what I am trying to say is I'm sick of having to "fake it to make it."
I've made many mistakes in my life and I am sure that I will continue to make many but I'm sick of being doubly punished: for both being autistic and human. Yesterday, I nearly rear ended a vehicle in front of me while trying to avoid another vehicle that turned right into me from the opposite lane. I was carrying passengers at the time. The fact that I avoided two accidents and kept my passengers safe should have been a good thing. But, no, they had to call my boss and complain. So when I get back to the yard, my boss wants to see me. I explain to her what happened and how I had to avoid the situation. At least the drive cam picked up the oncoming vehicle so I ended up looking every bit the professional driver. Despite being clearly in the right and avoiding an accident and potential injuries, I still got lectured about moving my eyes around and being aware of what is going on around me.
What could I say except that I am sorry and I will be sure and move my eyes around more? I avoided a serious situation. I would've expected an attaboy, not a 'you screwed up.'
I've made many mistakes in my life and I am sure that I will continue to make many but I'm sick of being doubly punished: for both being autistic and human. Yesterday, I nearly rear ended a vehicle in front of me while trying to avoid another vehicle that turned right into me from the opposite lane. I was carrying passengers at the time. The fact that I avoided two accidents and kept my passengers safe should have been a good thing. But, no, they had to call my boss and complain. So when I get back to the yard, my boss wants to see me. I explain to her what happened and how I had to avoid the situation. At least the drive cam picked up the oncoming vehicle so I ended up looking every bit the professional driver. Despite being clearly in the right and avoiding an accident and potential injuries, I still got lectured about moving my eyes around and being aware of what is going on around me.
What could I say except that I am sorry and I will be sure and move my eyes around more? I avoided a serious situation. I would've expected an attaboy, not a 'you screwed up.'