musicalman
Well-Known Member
Hi everyone,
So a curious question has come to me. Do you have a special interest in something you never really liked all that much, but something still intrigues you enough to keep you coming back to it? I guess people go through that often with bands or TV shows. I dunno.
I often develop these special interests when dealing with technical audio things. I hear something and will dislike it, but at the same time will be fascinated by an aspect of it. Often, this fascination leads me to want to discover how it works or how I can play with it. But, after I have seemingly found all the information I need or am able to find, I end up not having energy to use it. It's like, I get excited about one aspect of things, and almost forget that there is something beyond that excitement which needs to stick around if my interest is to continue.
One example of many where this happened to me was when starting out with chiptunes. Part of me thinks chiptunes are fascinating, but another part of me doesn't feel that chiptunes have the warm vibrant qualities I like in music. Of course there's a lot of chiptunes out there, and I mean a lot, and there are definitely a selection of them I love. And there are no doubt others I will discover. But the average chiptune doesn't quite do it for me.
When I first started tinkering with chiptunes though, that didn't matter. I just wanted to know how to make the chiptune sound. After spending a few months on and off with various tools, I finally felt satisfied that I had what I needed to make chiptunes, and I even had some grand plans of what I would do once I was good enough. But the novelty of it quickly wore off scarcely after putting down my first phrase, leaving me feeling a bit lost in my own head, wondering if anything I truly wanted, anything I could use for days and still feel like there was more to do was inside these tools.
Even now, years later, I'll find myself trying a new idea here and there when I'm in the right mood, or saying "Wouldn't it be cool if program x had feature y?" Even though I'm a little older, and I know these fits of excitement/fascination aren't enough to sustain any kind of real interest, I still have to find an outlet for it. So I'll try random things, random tests to see if an idea could work, and a few times I've reached out to devs with ideas and even got them implemented. But after I've had a chance to burn the excitement off, the interest dissipates with it.
Sometimes I'm happy for the time I did spend with my excitement, and for the things I've learned by doing the extra research. It boosts my confidence in my ideas. But other times, it depresses me. Why am I so easily interested in small aspects of things? Why do I find it so hard to say "I'm interested in this whole big thing which I would want to come back to again and again?"
So yeah, do you think this is a common aspie thing, or just a symptom of an easily stimulated mind? Or maybe both?
So a curious question has come to me. Do you have a special interest in something you never really liked all that much, but something still intrigues you enough to keep you coming back to it? I guess people go through that often with bands or TV shows. I dunno.
I often develop these special interests when dealing with technical audio things. I hear something and will dislike it, but at the same time will be fascinated by an aspect of it. Often, this fascination leads me to want to discover how it works or how I can play with it. But, after I have seemingly found all the information I need or am able to find, I end up not having energy to use it. It's like, I get excited about one aspect of things, and almost forget that there is something beyond that excitement which needs to stick around if my interest is to continue.
One example of many where this happened to me was when starting out with chiptunes. Part of me thinks chiptunes are fascinating, but another part of me doesn't feel that chiptunes have the warm vibrant qualities I like in music. Of course there's a lot of chiptunes out there, and I mean a lot, and there are definitely a selection of them I love. And there are no doubt others I will discover. But the average chiptune doesn't quite do it for me.
When I first started tinkering with chiptunes though, that didn't matter. I just wanted to know how to make the chiptune sound. After spending a few months on and off with various tools, I finally felt satisfied that I had what I needed to make chiptunes, and I even had some grand plans of what I would do once I was good enough. But the novelty of it quickly wore off scarcely after putting down my first phrase, leaving me feeling a bit lost in my own head, wondering if anything I truly wanted, anything I could use for days and still feel like there was more to do was inside these tools.
Even now, years later, I'll find myself trying a new idea here and there when I'm in the right mood, or saying "Wouldn't it be cool if program x had feature y?" Even though I'm a little older, and I know these fits of excitement/fascination aren't enough to sustain any kind of real interest, I still have to find an outlet for it. So I'll try random things, random tests to see if an idea could work, and a few times I've reached out to devs with ideas and even got them implemented. But after I've had a chance to burn the excitement off, the interest dissipates with it.
Sometimes I'm happy for the time I did spend with my excitement, and for the things I've learned by doing the extra research. It boosts my confidence in my ideas. But other times, it depresses me. Why am I so easily interested in small aspects of things? Why do I find it so hard to say "I'm interested in this whole big thing which I would want to come back to again and again?"
So yeah, do you think this is a common aspie thing, or just a symptom of an easily stimulated mind? Or maybe both?