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AprilR

AprilR

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  • AprilR
    Does anyone else also feel anxiety even when things go well? Like there is a piece of puzzle that is missing and when it comes everything will fall apart
    AprilR
    I noticed that i am almost triggered when people bash themselves. Because it reminds me of my past self, when i hated myself
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I don't think getting over this mindset is easy, and i hope someday everyone can like themselves
    Gerontius
    Gerontius
    You have a very nice personality if you think this way. It is hard to get over. Self-depreciation isn't as healthy as we think.
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    Luca
    It makes me feel bad too. I used to hate myself a lot.
    AprilR
    Why are people so dumb and rely only on instinct.. I am so tired of people and at the same time jealous since i have to rationally think every single behavior while they are basically sailing through life.
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    AprilR
    AprilR
    I have to overthink every social interaction and behavior, bc otherwise people get angry and i get scared. I am jealous of people who don't Carry this burden
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Exactly, well said. What others take for granted, we rethink, and formulate and then execute, then go rethink the whole thing again. Lol
    AprilR
    AprilR
    They have no idea how lucky they are
    AprilR
    I had to go to the company today but p. Much did nothing and they told me to go home early. Meanwhile my coworkers are still working, i feel bad for them.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I hope they don't get jealous and give me the cold shoulder tomorrow..
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    Owliet
    If they do, that says more about them right? You went home early because they told you. What can you do otherwise?
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Yes although from their perspective it should be frustrating. But its no use dwelling on this
    AprilR
    I am angry at the fact that i bring work home at the weekends. I don't have to work on weekends just to meet deadlines.
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    Owliet
    When you have zero support but a ton of expectations and worried that if you mess up or feel like if you ask for help it means that you are not good at what you are doing, this plays into imposter syndrom and negative feelings. You’re stressed and overwhelmed and often too tired. You have to be careful.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you very much for talking to me about this. My parents are pretty much walls when i talk to them about it, like they didn't even hear what i am saying. It helps me a lot to talk to someone here and to have someone understand. I am still feeling a bit guilty thinking i am "not doing enough" but i know this is not true
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    Owliet
    Think you are doing more than enough. But you need to find a percentage of work that works for you without too much stress (it’s something that I am also working on). Otherwise you’ll get burned out and that’s harder to get out of. =)
    AprilR
    Questioning my spirituality lately. I have no idea what beliefs i have anymore.
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    330
    330
    That’s interesting now that you say that . You have me thinking now about tarot cards. Everything in existence has sequence, at least the patterns we can recognize
    AprilR
    AprilR
    The "hero's journey" makes me think of the Journey of the "Fool" as in the first card of Major arcana. It aligns in my mind.
    330
    330
    Interesting , personally I don’t know to much about tarot card , I will have to research more about them .
    AprilR
    I am so tired from working at my current job , with two faced people who think i am stupid to boot. And no one to Guide me and people who keep saying "to take responsibility what ever that means
    AprilR
    AprilR
    As an autistic person i surpass my limits everyday but still it is not enough
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    Owliet
    One thing I have realized is that it is important to be granted clear instructions and not have games being played. It does make it hard when you dont have clear instructions, and games being played. Some NTs find it difficult also.
    AprilR
    Nt s live in a subjective, social reality(finally found a word to explain the dissonance between me and them)
    AprilR
    AprilR
    In this social reality they can fake liking people and talk behind their back. They are both friendly and hateful.
    AprilR
    I feel annoyed by the New book i got just bc how they portrayed Sigyn. I wish there was a book where Loki and Sigyn's relationship was portrayed positive
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    AprilR
    AprilR
    Its Gospel of Loki by Joanne Harris. I am interested in mythology in general, but norse myth. isn't my fav.(though i am very interested in runes lately) In the past years it became very popular i think with Marvel movies
    Forest Cat
    Forest Cat
    I like that story about the snake and the bowl and earthquakes. I like the science behind it, how earthquakes happen. So scientific. :) lol
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Well it's all symbolic haha. That's why i love mythology bc of how absurd the stories can get.
    AprilR
    Watching Makanai on Netflix. So calming, also features two of my special interests: maiko education and cooking!
    AprilR
    Work tomorrow. Anxious as usual. Also i had to attend a "meeting" today more like shouting match. That was also so stressful and i hated it.
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    Owliet
    I had covid last march and still had to work From home and I was pretty much dead. Putting up a mask for people is also very draining and just takes more energy away. It’s why, it’s important to use the time you have free and manage that time to ensure that you can recharge. I am learning this myself. Glad that the meeting wasn’t about work! Although really sucks that everyone was aggressive.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    It sucks that we have to work even while sick. I hope you are well now. I wish i had more time to recharge as well, i am also pretty much dead when i come home from work.
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    Owliet
    Oh yeah, far recovered and I’m not working there anymore. Learned a lot though from that job and the recent one I had and now know how to recharge and not bring work home with me as often as I did. Sorry that you feel dead when you return from work. Take care of yourself. And don’t be too hard on yourself either. I know it’s hard to not do.=)
    AprilR
    I have no idea why people get angry or annoyed at small things. Esp. At the work place. I want to transfer some maturity to some NT s i work with.
    Raggamuffin
    Raggamuffin
    Things that trigger you might not trigger others. It's all about perspective.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Yes or maybe i misunderstand people. I wish one of them was less prickly though.
    Tony Ramirez
    Tony Ramirez
    Agree. Some people just have a short fuse so I try not to be around them.
    AprilR
    I have been working while sick for 3 days bc there is no one else in the office who is free enough to do this work. But my coworkers say the workload is Light. Lol!
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Me with a fever, nausea and sore throat trying to decipher what the shouting person on the phone is trying to say
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