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  • It appears that i can't relate to anyone, not even other autistic people. Oh well not surprised
    Shaddock
    Shaddock
    don´t know if it´s your case, but I often tended to overreact when having a disappointing and/or hurting experience and I trivialized it. when for example someone ghosted me, I was like "noone likes me, noone fits to me, I will always be alone." I think that´s normal and usually it disappears after coping that situation after some time.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you very much, i think this is related to my own circumstances and life experience that i can't relate with anyone. It's not anyone's fault really.
    I witnessed a spiritual ceremony today! It was so interesting and the people involved immediately could tell something was "off" with me. (not that autism is something negative, i also have anxiety and a lot of negative thoughts)
    Crossbreed
    Crossbreed
    What country are you in?
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I am turkish. I just checked and this type of ceremony takes place in many other countries as well. It's called molybdomancy
    Aneka
    Aneka
    Where I live it used to be a tradition on Sylvester. (It is now considered a health risk and forbidden.)
    I am working at the weirdest office imaginable.
    Shaddock
    Shaddock
    and the bosses are unsocial. so she misses that kind of celebration and I would do that in her position. I hate this kind of garbage and hypocritical dung. because it´s not genuine. also it´s implys a private and amicable atmosphere in work, which not exists in work. I would always miss such celebrations.
    Shaddock
    Shaddock
    what makes most people´s mood better is more money on their deposit.
    L
    Luca
    Supernatural/paranormal stuff is one of my special interests too :) But what I was picturing here was something like a dramatic tv show lol
    Sick and tired from all the vagueness at work. I have no idea what to do. I am getting better everyday but it is too difficult to not have a basis that i could work on. I lack the intuition that is necessary to do tasks without instruction
    My family really is abnormal. I have come to the weirdest wedding imaginable
    Shaddock
    Shaddock
    nothing wrong with that, that you are surprised. I think people can get under pressure when they think that they have to act like others expect it from them, even when it´s not their temper. I hope you and the others and especially the couple enjoy it still, even when it´s not like it´s usually done.
    Shaddock
    Shaddock
    I heard that others should dress not as good like the bride. when she wears jeans, then it will be not easy : D maybe come in your pyjama (joke).
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Very true, they are unconventional people in general. I always try to conform to a sense of "normalness" of what the majority of people expect. Since these people are unconventional i felt at a loss as to how to act.
    My cousin chose the worst day to get married. So many tasks to do at work and my other coworkers are probably swearing at me for taking the day off.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Just fire me already ffs, i already know i am unfit to work. I will Just rub it in other people's faces
    I bought myself something sweet after work, but it was too sweet and now i feel sick.
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Yeshuasdaughter
    Eat something with a lot of protein and very little carbs. It will settle your blood sugar. Maybe something easy like lunchmeat, even.
    Stuttermabolur
    Stuttermabolur
    @AprilR I was actually going to mention baklavas before reading your reply. Baklavas are some of my absolute favourite sweets, and it's a shame that you can't really get them where I live. There was a place named "Balkan Baklava" when I lived in Serbia, and I ordered a box full of the stuff twice; Once on my birthday and once when I was about to leave.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    They are delicious, but a bit of heavy. I like it regardless since i like everything sweet.
    I will probably get fired soon, well this time i managed to Last 6 months! Good job me!
    Shaddock
    Shaddock
    that´s heavy. that you can get fired so fast. and unfair. I´m sure you´re doing better than you think and I hope that everything will work fine in your work or that you find something better. you don´t have to feel sorry for anything, this is forum here is made to say what burdens and bothers us and it´s important that you let out what wears you. that you vent it.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you, i don't mean to be negative either but i don't have any outlets to talk about this stuff irl.
    L
    Luca
    Don’t worry April, no one can be totally positive all the time :) I hope you can find a job where you would be treated better.
    I feel so weird but in a good way. Like i finally understood something about my life and fate.
    I am happy.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    True all of that. Woman are wired for instant gratification but employers really don't say much. They are likely to tell you when you aren't living up to standards. Some jobs will give you a good bonus at the end of the year, but times are harder then before.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    So maybe don't wear yourself out because employers these days can be fickle which means they just look for the next warm body. My best bosses were on the spectrum, l had two great ones, and on that was so so.
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Good luck, maybe you will find a good boss to work for. That makes such a big difference. My best bosses are always woman but l did have a really laid back guy manager but he lost his job due to Covid.
    I messed up my diet this afternoon with something very unhealthy but idc it was delicious.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    That was one of my favorite chocolates, along with Milka.
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    Never heard of Milka, Tempted to search it.

    I'm guessin it's a ....native product, only to be found inside your country. If I have eaten it, I forget.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I think it's of German or Swiss origin, but is sold here too
    I am so ridiculously indecisive it's impossible for me to make a decision without outside validation
    AprilR
    AprilR
    What do you mean by that i Just don't make these kind of decisions.. Ever
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    1. "what career shall I pursue and dedicate myself for the next 40 years of my life ?"
    2." is that reaaaaly the person I want to marry? "

    I'm still working, trying to figure out, come to a conclusion on 1. Avoiding 2 like the plague.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I hope you can come to a conclusion on both. I don't make plans for either anymore, i'll just live and see what life brings.
    I'm just gonna go ahead and assume, it's hot where you are. I mean. Hotter than usual.
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    Merhaba Nisan. anadilinde Seninle konuşacağımı düşündüm.

    korkunç hata Umarım yapmamışımdır.

    utançtan
    Yapsaydım ölürdüm.

    eğer bu senin dilin
    Beni Alütfen.

    Eğer bir şekilde size saygısızlıktan bahsedilebilirse bunula ispatlayın, bende kullanılabilirim.
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    I have attempted to communicate in a language I am unfamiliar with. I hope I have not dishonored myself.
    Ready for *sepukku*
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Fena değil, seppukuya gerek yok Hahaha. Google translate strikes again i guess!
    I am glad that i work tomorrow. And that i didn't go to the summerhouse. Too many bad memories
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Sometimes i wish one of my poorer friends had the things i have. They would probably enjoy it a lot more.
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    There's one way for them to have the things you have. High stakes gambling.

    mel gibson poker GIF


    Betting All In GIF by Angie Tribeca

    I mean, If you win, more for you. If they win, then they're a little less poor.
    Feeling hyper so i will go on a walk while listening to music. Good job having energy me!
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    Hyper Music by Muse. This is a track that lives up to the hype. It makes me feel energized anyway.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    It definitely lives up to the "hype" (get it? Ha ha)
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    Somebody once said on youtube he (lead singer of Muse) looks like like a 'grungy Tom Cruise, I gotta agree.
    I physically can't bring myself to do some work bc of anxiety. I wonder how i will deal with tomorrow's deadlines.
    Slim Jim
    Slim Jim
    Work Computer GIF


    Yeah...work sucks....

    Maybe you can take some drugs....I mean to help you feel better, I don't mean take hard stuff, like cocaine, I mean legal stuff, of course. I'm sure you can think of some substance out there that could Relax your nervous system. That's what I do,I go for the quick and easy solution. Chemical modification.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I do take some meds for anxiety, i try not to forget taking them i mean. Also that is literally me when working^
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