Markness

I also had two deconstructive outlooks instilled in my mind: “You have plenty of time to think about it!” and “God has a plan for you!”

I wonder whether you could work with animals yet. Even getting some kind of job at an animal rescue or something. You don't have to be a huge mathematician; lot of that's basic math & guess what it's 2022 and you could get away with a pocket calculator.

As for those other beliefs, I am still dealing with those. "Plenty of time" is dangerous in excess. The "God's plan" stuff can be super toxic (And I say that from a diehard Christian perspective. Seriously--the amount of anxiety that induces is unfair to anyone)

Time for a sports training montage?

Love it when a complex problem has a few very simple components to make a solution. Eagerly awaiting positive results.

@tree I have to see an endocrinologist before I know.

I'm glad you're getting some cooking experience! :)

@Markness What other foods do you know how to fix?

Another way of saying that is "I keep telling myself those stories that continue my sad angry feelings about being treated unfairly...etc"

The place I go to, the woman and I generally talk about yaks, the past couple years, since she is the mother of the guy who has the yak farm on the road where I live.

I actually have a car. What’s holding me back is my mother’s web, low finances, anxiety issues, lack of social connections, and severe depression. I can’t simply just get in my car and drive away.

I saw that bit about your mom's overprotectiveness of you. Not to be rude but I think your mom has mental problems.

She’s in denial about them.

Long term depressive thinking leads you to think this way. As an example - https://www.verywellmind.com/depression-and-cognitive-distortions-1065378

Read that list, and I'm sure you'll find yourself doing quite a lot in that list, judging by what you've posted in the past.

Please, Markness, don't ruminate and go to sleep earlier next time. Staying up late can seriously bring out negative emotions. Btw, seeing how you changed your profile pic from Nanachi to Reg, it looks like you are going for a more proactive stance?

@Homulilly It’s more like I wish I could be a survivor instead of a victim. But my attempts to change my life around have met only failures so far.

@Markness.....The last two words of that comment are good. 'so far'....That's like saying 'not yet'...which leaves hope for the future.

I wish you could talk to your present self without telling him those non-rational stories.

I won’t be a lover, but you can come over for chili dogs and movies.

It's probably not the only thing.

The male side of the autism community is mostly made of single men--Course if you fall in love, it's not about the community, it is about you & the girl. The "community" you've been looking for.

It rained today. But I don't feel like the clouds hate me.

Are you fascinated by people who'd require smoking and drinking as elements necessary for hanging out together?

I wouldn’t say fascinating. I am just baffled at how I was constantly told not to do those things by authority figures and family members yet I was bullied and ostracized.

I don't see any connection between those situations.

@crewlucaa_ if you mean me, I have to say: thank you very much! I rarely read other threads and just say my own opinion and which comes to my mind. but I am glad that you like it : ) you are very friendly too and I am sure that you are a really good person, even without really knowing you.

you and many others here are a gift for humanity. you make this dark world a bit more colourful and bright.

Yes, I meant you, @Shaddock :) And thank you for your kindness!

Tomorrow.

Fasting?

Not this time.

How does that work?

If someone bullies you because your parents are doctors, they are idiots. Don't listen to idiots, don't let it get to you so much. People say crazy things all the time, the trick is to not listen to them.

@tree I am perceived to be a “rich kid” who thinks he’s better than everyone. They’ll also make snide remarks and don’t believe me when I struggle with money.

@UberScout I’ve tried some CBD products before and Delta 8 is illegal in my state.

Hmm. That is quite the puzzle...

Texas is largely backwards and we have a dingbat of a governor who caters to people stuck in the past.

That was a very short future. You've started two threads since you speculated that you'd be using only PMs for a while.

I might change my mind.

That's true. You have the ability to do that.

The universe neither loves us nor does it hate us. It just watches over us, guiding us to the safest places it can find.

You had expectations. Those expectations , commonly referred to as "dreams," I guess because of the illusory nature of such expectations. When they failed to materialize. You felt suffering. Then you projected this suffering onto the Universe. Then you catastrophized this feeling. Hence the existential persecutory nature of this feeling. Hopefully this explanation clarifies matters. Somewhat.

Mr. Young God... Hah. Funny name. I'm 33 also. It's good to be young. Even though I consider myself old. Kinda.

Do you know the hours/days for this place? It is Saturday today, and Easter weekend.

Their site said they were open today. The robot call said they were open for walk ins but I don’t see why no one would’ve been unable to answer a phone call.

How many times did you try calling them today?