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Markness
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Aug 5, 1988 (Age: 33)

Markness

Young God, Male, 33

Spoke up again and the co-supervisor got upset. May 23, 2022 at 5:05 PM

Markness was last seen:
May 24, 2022 at 12:37 AM
    1. Markness
      Markness
      Working only part time has been a deal breaker for getting a girlfriend for me.
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        I also had two deconstructive outlooks instilled in my mind: “You have plenty of time to think about it!” and “God has a plan for you!”
        Apr 21, 2022
      3. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        I wonder whether you could work with animals yet. Even getting some kind of job at an animal rescue or something. You don't have to be a huge mathematician; lot of that's basic math & guess what it's 2022 and you could get away with a pocket calculator.
        Apr 21, 2022
      4. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        As for those other beliefs, I am still dealing with those. "Plenty of time" is dangerous in excess. The "God's plan" stuff can be super toxic (And I say that from a diehard Christian perspective. Seriously--the amount of anxiety that induces is unfair to anyone)
        Apr 21, 2022
    2. Markness
      Markness
      It turns out my testosterone is low.
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      3. Raggamuffin
        Raggamuffin
        Time for a sports training montage?
        Apr 21, 2022
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      4. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        Love it when a complex problem has a few very simple components to make a solution. Eagerly awaiting positive results.
        Apr 21, 2022
      5. Markness
        Markness
        @tree I have to see an endocrinologist before I know.
        Apr 21, 2022
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    3. Markness
      Markness
      I’ve cooked rice five or more times now.
      1. crewlucaa_ likes this.
      2. crewlucaa_
        crewlucaa_
        I'm glad you're getting some cooking experience! :)
        Apr 21, 2022
      3. tree
        tree
        @Markness What other foods do you know how to fix?
        Apr 21, 2022
    4. Markness
      Markness
      I can’t stop thinking about things others said that hurt my feelings.
      1. tree
        tree
        Another way of saying that is "I keep telling myself those stories that continue my sad angry feelings about being treated unfairly...etc"
        Apr 20, 2022
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    5. Markness
      Markness
      I had to close my eyes for the blood tests this time.
      1. tree
        tree
        The place I go to, the woman and I generally talk about yaks, the past couple years, since she is the mother of the guy who has the yak farm on the road where I live.
        Apr 20, 2022
    6. Markness
      Markness
      Was I born in the wrong place?
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        I actually have a car. What’s holding me back is my mother’s web, low finances, anxiety issues, lack of social connections, and severe depression. I can’t simply just get in my car and drive away.
        Apr 20, 2022
      3. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        I saw that bit about your mom's overprotectiveness of you. Not to be rude but I think your mom has mental problems.
        Apr 20, 2022
      4. Markness
        Markness
        She’s in denial about them.
        Apr 20, 2022
    7. Markness
      Markness
      Why do others hate me?
      1. Raggamuffin
        Raggamuffin
        Apr 20, 2022
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    8. Markness
      Markness
      I need to sleep but I keep staying up.
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      2. Homulilly
        Homulilly
        Please, Markness, don't ruminate and go to sleep earlier next time. Staying up late can seriously bring out negative emotions. Btw, seeing how you changed your profile pic from Nanachi to Reg, it looks like you are going for a more proactive stance?
        Apr 20, 2022
      3. Markness
        Markness
        @Homulilly It’s more like I wish I could be a survivor instead of a victim. But my attempts to change my life around have met only failures so far.
        Apr 20, 2022
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      4. tree
        tree
        @Markness.....The last two words of that comment are good. 'so far'....That's like saying 'not yet'...which leaves hope for the future.
        Apr 20, 2022
    9. Markness
      Markness
      I wish I could talk to my future self.
      1. tree
        tree
        I wish you could talk to your present self without telling him those non-rational stories.
        Apr 19, 2022
    10. Markness
      Markness
      I wish I had a lover to cuddle with on unhappy nights.
      1. Metalhead
        Metalhead
        I won’t be a lover, but you can come over for chili dogs and movies.
        Apr 19, 2022
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    11. Markness
      Markness
      I honestly sometimes want a cure for autism. I feel like it’s the only thing that can help me.
      1. tree
        tree
        It's probably not the only thing.
        Apr 19, 2022
    12. Markness
      Markness
      I feel like the autism community hates men who are single.
      1. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        The male side of the autism community is mostly made of single men--Course if you fall in love, it's not about the community, it is about you & the girl. The "community" you've been looking for.
        Apr 19, 2022
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      2. Slim Jim
        Slim Jim
        It rained today. But I don't feel like the clouds hate me.
        Apr 19, 2022
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    13. Markness
      Markness
      Should I take up smoking and drinking to finally fit in?
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      2. tree
        tree
        Are you fascinated by people who'd require smoking and drinking as elements necessary for hanging out together?
        Apr 19, 2022
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      3. Markness
        Markness
        I wouldn’t say fascinating. I am just baffled at how I was constantly told not to do those things by authority figures and family members yet I was bullied and ostracized.
        Apr 19, 2022
      4. tree
        tree
        I don't see any connection between those situations.
        Apr 19, 2022
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    14. Markness
      Markness
      Should I keep posting or just disappear?
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      3. Shaddock
        Shaddock
        @crewlucaa_ if you mean me, I have to say: thank you very much! I rarely read other threads and just say my own opinion and which comes to my mind. but I am glad that you like it : ) you are very friendly too and I am sure that you are a really good person, even without really knowing you.
        Apr 19, 2022
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      4. Shaddock
        Shaddock
        you and many others here are a gift for humanity. you make this dark world a bit more colourful and bright.
        Apr 19, 2022
        Atrapa Almas and crewlucaa_ like this.
      5. crewlucaa_
        crewlucaa_
        Yes, I meant you, @Shaddock :) And thank you for your kindness!
        Apr 19, 2022
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    15. Markness
      Markness
      I finally got the blood tests scheduled.
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        Tomorrow.
        Apr 19, 2022
      3. tree
        tree
        Fasting?
        Apr 19, 2022
      4. Markness
        Markness
        Not this time.
        Apr 19, 2022
    16. Markness
      Markness
      My parents being doctors made me get bullied, even to this day.
      1. tree
        tree
        How does that work?
        Apr 18, 2022
      2. Forest Cat
        Forest Cat
        If someone bullies you because your parents are doctors, they are idiots. Don't listen to idiots, don't let it get to you so much. People say crazy things all the time, the trick is to not listen to them.
        Apr 18, 2022
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      3. Markness
        Markness
        @tree I am perceived to be a “rich kid” who thinks he’s better than everyone. They’ll also make snide remarks and don’t believe me when I struggle with money.
        Apr 18, 2022
    17. Markness
      Markness
      Before I slept last night, my mind brought up how I will die one day.
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        @UberScout I’ve tried some CBD products before and Delta 8 is illegal in my state.
        Apr 18, 2022
      3. UberScout
        UberScout
        Hmm. That is quite the puzzle...
        Apr 18, 2022
      4. Markness
        Markness
        Texas is largely backwards and we have a dingbat of a governor who caters to people stuck in the past.
        Apr 18, 2022
    18. Markness
      Markness
      I think I am going to only use PMs for the foreseeable future.
      1. tree
        tree
        That was a very short future. You've started two threads since you speculated that you'd be using only PMs for a while.
        Apr 18, 2022
      2. Markness
        Markness
        I might change my mind.
        Apr 18, 2022
      3. tree
        tree
        That's true. You have the ability to do that.
        Apr 18, 2022
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    19. Markness
      Markness
      Why didn’t my dreams come true? Does the universe want me to suffer until I die?
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      2. UberScout
        UberScout
        The universe neither loves us nor does it hate us. It just watches over us, guiding us to the safest places it can find.
        Apr 16, 2022
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      3. Slim Jim
        Slim Jim
        You had expectations. Those expectations , commonly referred to as "dreams," I guess because of the illusory nature of such expectations. When they failed to materialize. You felt suffering. Then you projected this suffering onto the Universe. Then you catastrophized this feeling. Hence the existential persecutory nature of this feeling. Hopefully this explanation clarifies matters. Somewhat.
        Apr 16, 2022
      4. Slim Jim
        Slim Jim
        Mr. Young God... Hah. Funny name. I'm 33 also. It's good to be young. Even though I consider myself old. Kinda.
        Apr 16, 2022
    20. Markness
      Markness
      I called the number I was given to schedule a blood test but only got a repetitive robot call that didn’t give me the option to do so.
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      2. tree
        tree
        Do you know the hours/days for this place? It is Saturday today, and Easter weekend.
        Apr 16, 2022
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      3. Markness
        Markness
        Their site said they were open today. The robot call said they were open for walk ins but I don’t see why no one would’ve been unable to answer a phone call.
        Apr 16, 2022
      4. tree
        tree
        How many times did you try calling them today?
        Apr 16, 2022
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    Gender:
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    Birthday:
    Aug 5, 1988 (Age: 33)
    Diagnosis Status:
    Aspergers Syndrome - Officially Diagnosed
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