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Markness
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May 24, 2022 at 12:37 AM
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Birthday:
Aug 5, 1988 (Age: 33)

Markness

Young God, Male, 33

Spoke up again and the co-supervisor got upset. May 23, 2022 at 5:05 PM

Markness was last seen:
May 24, 2022 at 12:37 AM
    1. Markness
      Markness
      I have to fight against disinterest now.
    2. Markness
      Markness
      Everything I wear now feels uncomfortable.
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        Chest and sides feel tight mostly.
        Apr 29, 2022
      3. tree
        tree
        Have you gained weight?
        Apr 29, 2022
      4. Markness
        Markness
        More like regained what I lost but yes.
        Apr 29, 2022
    3. Markness
      Markness
      I am mentally scarred by what someone told me to do.
      1. Raggamuffin
        Raggamuffin
        Freedom to choose how to react. You can blame the "someone", but in reality you chose to "mentally scar" yourself.
        Apr 29, 2022
      2. Slim Jim
        Slim Jim
        Remember the Russian roulette scene in deer hunter? Imagine being told to put a gun to your head. Some serious scarring might arise. Mental or otherwise.
        Apr 29, 2022
      3. Markness
        Markness
        I have not watched that movie. No one in person EVER talked about it.
        Apr 29, 2022
    4. Markness
      Markness
      “You don’t need a girlfriend!” feels the same as being told “I don’t want you to have a girlfriend!” to me.
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      3. Aspychata
        Aspychata
        @Markness. Sorry you fell into that dark hole. Maybe you can get out and walk this weekend or go to a coffee place on the weekend. I am hoping you meet someone dude.
        Apr 28, 2022
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      4. Aspychata
        Aspychata
        Went out on a date, l was just happy l got my act together and didn't cancel. Lol
        Apr 28, 2022
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      5. Shaddock
        Shaddock
        tree is on every or nearly every comment : D like a sister watching over her brother lol. maybe she really likes you, don´t know.
        Apr 28, 2022
        cornman likes this.
    5. Markness
      Markness
      I no longer want to help the autism community to get more notice.
      1. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        If you're helping to get something from others, then that's the wrong reason. This mindset is easy to learn & is why many men cannot end up with an honest romantic relationship.
        Apr 28, 2022
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      2. tree
        tree
        @Markness It sounds like your expectations were not met. Like you didn't get what you were looking for...
        Apr 28, 2022
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    6. Markness
      Markness
      I am bored with the current mainstream state of music and comics. The underground is better.
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        Do my best to be patient for the underground creators I like make content.
        Apr 28, 2022
      3. tree
        tree
        Oh...now you've edited the original remark. Added "mainstream" and the remark about "underground."
        Apr 28, 2022
      4. Markness
        Markness
        Sadly, even underground creators have been slow lately.
        Apr 28, 2022
    7. Markness
      Markness
      The mirror's turned to the wall Reflecting what I'll be And I'm afraid of dying And I'll forget what I've just seen
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      2. Slim Jim
        Slim Jim
        You're only 33. (so Am I ) You've got decades of life ahead of you. You'll be fine. Everybody is afraid of dying. You're actually a few weeks younger than me. I see.
        Apr 28, 2022
      3. tree
        tree
        Apr 28, 2022
      4. Markness
        Markness
        @tree Yes, it’s called Remember Me by Michael Gira and Jarboe’s World of Skin project.
        Apr 29, 2022
    8. Markness
      Markness
      I feel like I have rocks in my jaws and mandibles.
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      2. tree
        tree
        When's the last time you were at the dentist? Opening and closing jaw isn't supposed to make noise.
        Apr 27, 2022
      3. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        This sounds like TMJ isn't it?
        Apr 27, 2022
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      4. 1ForAll
        1ForAll
        Sounds like my situation last year. Suspected bruxism and TMD, but when left face/jaw began to swell days later they re-took xrays & saw an infection they earlier missed. Put me on antibiotics, and it went away. Had to remove the infected tooth. The sooner you get the correct diagnosis and treatment, the more likely you'd get things corrected.
        Apr 27, 2022
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    9. Markness
      Markness
      Spoke my mind at work instead of bottling it.
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      2. tree
        tree
        Apr 26, 2022
      3. Markness
        Markness
        @tree Ill treatment by a regular aggressor.
        Apr 26, 2022
      4. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        Give 'em hell, Markness!--or give 'em the truth and they'll think it's hell.
        Apr 26, 2022
        Atrapa Almas and crewlucaa_ like this.
    10. cornman
      cornman
      Is your head feeling better?
      1. crewlucaa_ likes this.
      2. Markness
        Markness
        It is. Thank you for asking.
        Apr 26, 2022
        Gerontius, cornman and crewlucaa_ like this.
      3. crewlucaa_
        crewlucaa_
        I’m glad to hear that :)
        Apr 26, 2022
        cornman likes this.
    11. Markness
      Markness
      My head feels like it’s on fire.
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      2. cornman
        cornman
        that sucks dude
        Apr 25, 2022
      3. Markness
        Markness
        @tree Crummy weather and my anger may have made my blood pressure go up.
        Apr 25, 2022
      4. Markness
        Markness
        Apr 25, 2022
    12. Markness
      Markness
      My mother admitted to me she purposefully puts my siblings before me.
      1. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        It is time then to put yourself before their expectations of you. Go chase success even if it hurts.
        Long-practiced sadness will often alter brain chemistry. Dopamine emitters & receptors may go offline.
        Apr 25, 2022
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      2. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        That happened to me there for awhile. Ended up having to re-train myself to make serotonin & dopamine. Am now capable of joy, regaining productivity. Might work for you--takes a while but is worth it
        Apr 25, 2022
        Homulilly and cornman like this.
    13. Markness
      Markness
      I want to cry right now. :(
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        I guess so but I am discouraged by my lack of a degree and no other job training under my belt.
        Apr 25, 2022
      3. crewlucaa_
        crewlucaa_
        I don’t have a degree either. But I was able to start a business doing something I love. If you want job coaching and some advice about how/where to look, send me a pm or an email :)
        Apr 25, 2022
      4. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        Markness, if you got to, let's get on the phone & talk things over someday. I have a knack for walking into just about anywhere & getting jobs. They let me drive the polishers at the hardware factory today.
        I think you can do this.
        Apr 25, 2022
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    14. Markness
      Markness
      I keep putting aside adding things to the vision board.
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      2. tree
        tree
        That second sentence characterizes self predicting prophecy.
        Apr 25, 2022
      3. Markness
        Markness
        Why do I keep failing, though?
        Apr 25, 2022
      4. tree
        tree
        It's possible to re-frame "failure" as incremental success. If you'd stopped standing up when you were a baby learning to walk, would you have learned to walk?
        Apr 25, 2022
    15. Markness
      Markness
      Hitting rock bottom is not the solution.
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      3. Markness
        Markness
        It’s more like they are chained or even hammered into the ground.
        Apr 25, 2022
      4. tree
        tree
        So, it's external restraints, you figure?
        Apr 25, 2022
      5. Markness
        Markness
        I think so. Social rejection has especially sabotaged my life.
        Apr 25, 2022
    16. Markness
      Markness
      Maybe I should’ve left the community last year when I started becoming hated?
      1. Metalhead
        Metalhead
        If you will learn to like yourself more, none of that would end up mattering.
        Apr 23, 2022
        Gerontius likes this.
      2. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        So far approximately 95% of the Markness-bashing on this forum is coming from the man himself.
        Apr 23, 2022
        Homulilly and Metalhead like this.
    17. Markness
      Markness
      How can I avoid Friday night blues?
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      3. tree
        tree
        Adjust your expectations.
        Apr 22, 2022
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      4. Aspychata
        Aspychata
        Do something you really like to do. I love a new movie and a crunchy snack. I enjoy talking to some friends if possible. The gym visit on Friday keeps my happy points spinning.
        Apr 22, 2022
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      5. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        On Friday nights I sometimes like to put some good records on, or play the organ, or drink coffee, or go sit outside & say hi to the neighbors' cat. I'm pretty easily amused. Only society expects you to go clubbing, Markness. Do what fulfills your own desires.
        Apr 22, 2022
    18. Markness
      Markness
      I feel like not having a girlfriend makes others look down on me.
      1. Aspychata
        Aspychata
        I don't look down on you. You can't use relationships to identify yourself. You are unique with or without another person. I can truly say some relationships can cause us severe stress. In a way, l wonder if l should have stayed single, l may have been better off.
        Apr 22, 2022
      2. phantom
        phantom
        People generally do, they also do to me.
        Apr 22, 2022
      3. crewlucaa_
        crewlucaa_
        I don’t think people necessarily look down on me for not having a boyfriend, but some people have called me “desperate” which I’m not… I don’t really feel like dating right now anyways.
        I think it’s really shallow if people care that much if someone else has a boyfriend or girlfriend or not! Tell them it’s none of their business.
        Apr 22, 2022
    19. Markness
    20. Markness
      Markness
      I am getting referred to an endocrinologist.
      1. Gerontius likes this.
      2. Raggamuffin
        Raggamuffin
        "No danger", as I've heard northerners in the UK say. I'm sure they'll help get you answers, and on the road to feeling better.
        Apr 21, 2022
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    Gender:
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    Birthday:
    Aug 5, 1988 (Age: 33)
    Diagnosis Status:
    Aspergers Syndrome - Officially Diagnosed
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