Markness

It's you who's telling yourself that.

I do get discouraged when my attempts to improve my social life fizzle out.

We all want you to get better, but the fact is you think external validation is the only way to get there. Accepting yourself first is the answer.

Yes.

I think I may have asked you before, but have you ever kept a dream journal?

I have not.

Try it. You might not hate it.

Who knows? As many times as you've pondered this, do you not remember that some of the people who say that are only too willing to tell you why they say it? And it was never fun hearing their *reasons.* Ask them, if you're feeling masochistic and just want to hear it again.

Sometimes they really believe that they are *only trying to help you.* Sometimes, I imagine, there are just some mean jerky people that you encounter. And other times, people aren't even saying that, but you interpret it that way.

I would not recomend anybody with clinical depression starting a new relation or being parent untill they got into a more balanced mental state. That said, I have no idea of why those people told you that.

Why do you suppose it is that way?

They probably either don’t know what to tell me or just aren’t interested anymore.

I have no bond with my entire extended family except for one of my uncles, his wife, and his daughter. The rest of my family hates me and they have said that. My family is completely divided on politics and social justice issues, and my parents and I, and my uncle’s family, have been kind of pushed out of the circle in recent years.
I think being estranged from family members is more common than you might think.

So the re-scheduling was for today ? Not in the future....

It wasn’t rescheduled. It happened on the day it was supposed to take place.

That's weird.

Book store.

Is it postponed? Rescheduled?....

Apparently it’s been rescheduled.

I wasn’t told it needed a title but I thought it would. Should I use a sharpie or simple markers to write out the two wishes I DO need to put on there?

That's up to you.
Since it is a "Vision" board, there will be images, too, right?

Yes. I was suggested either to get magazine cut outs or do drawings.

People have said that to me, tree, unfortunately :( Oppressive, yes, and a bit condescending.

@Aspychata Work has been slow and boring lately. I try to keep my sanity together but it’s not easy.

Proud you are sticking it out. Don't let that lady trigger you. :)

So you were at some kind of coffee shop? (I looked up what "Dutch Bros." was.) Or somebody who worked at one of those places randomly appeared in your air space?

This particular location does drive-thru orders and the employee came up to my open window.

Right on Dude. Keep it rocking.

That seems reasonable.

You mean there's more to the lyrics than> https://genius.com/Pig-infinite-shame-lyrics ?

Yes, there’s more. There’s some chanting played throughout the song. There’s also a sample that has someone saying “You lying pig!”

I don't think you should raise hell, these things happen. I`m sure they didn't do it on purpose.

@Forest Cat I am joking for a change in the second sentence.

Oh, I see.

Because you have a terrible attitude and are extremely pessimistic. Almost all of your posts are negative. Instead of saying "why is life better for others" you could say "why is *my* life better then others" its all about attitude and perspective.

It's not

All lives have hard parts. You get less of them when you resist making self-inflicted injuries.

You're an author. To make this more interesting say "I will sever my family's web." Put it in active case & roll on from there. You won't fail; you'll either win or learn.

Coffee. Lots and lots and lots of coffee. By the throatful.

Did l hear coffee. Yes. I like anything coffee flavored.

@Markness You're saying you find that your thought process is more fluid when you using Adderall? Chemical stimulation isn't necessarily the answer (ie coffee/caffeine).

Yes. Have you ever managed to sink a car in a dirt road? The more you sit there spinning the wheels, the more it will get itself hub deep.

I guess I have nothing left to live for after all.

No, read that closer & apply to reality. You have been saying nearly that exact same thing for years & it has gotten you more of the same. Why not try a different tactic? Those have been giving you a little bit of good results.

I want to do something leisurely but I keep feeling sleepy. You?

I need to go to sleep however l suffer from insomnia alot. Anyways, hope your Friday is a good day!!

Sleeping would probably be the most leisurely activity of all....