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Markness
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Markness

Young God, Male, 33

I finally saw the lowest price for Swans’ Cop album ($33. Still ouchie, yes, but less so than other times I’ve seen it.) and ordered it. Jan 27, 2022 at 1:26 PM

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    1. Markness
      Markness
      I finally saw the lowest price for Swans’ Cop album ($33. Still ouchie, yes, but less so than other times I’ve seen it.) and ordered it.
    2. Markness
      Markness
      I always feel like I am being talked negatively about. :(
      1. tree
        tree
        I've noticed that.
        Jan 26, 2022 at 1:39 PM
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      2. crewlucaa_
        crewlucaa_
        Me too :( It’s most likely not real though. You have to have faith in the fact that there are people who really care about you.
        Jan 26, 2022 at 8:55 PM
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    3. Markness
      Markness
      I feel so rushed and anxiety isn’t helping that feeling.
      1. tree
        tree
        In general? Or was that particular to today ?
        Jan 26, 2022 at 2:36 PM
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        Today after I found out I missed some assignments and emails as well as dropped low in my checkings. I am filing out my W2.
        Jan 26, 2022 at 7:12 PM
    4. Markness
      Markness
      I am almost broke and I am not receiving college emails regarding my class for some reason.
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      2. Streetwise
        Streetwise
        In the exact same club if I had less finances I couldn't make a free phone call on my mobile phone
        Jan 26, 2022 at 12:17 PM
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      3. Markness
        Markness
        @tree I talked to the teacher and it turns out the emails we’re going elsewhere in my college email account than where I thought they should go.
        Jan 26, 2022 at 1:34 PM
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      4. tree
        tree
        The "like" is for finding out by talking to the teacher.
        Jan 26, 2022 at 7:21 PM
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    5. Markness
      Markness
      Maybe I need to truly disappear from this place? I failed so much in this life that I think my death is approaching sooner instead of later.
      1. Metalhead
        Metalhead
        Seek out professional help if you are seriously thinking of ending it all, but we are still here for you.
        Jan 25, 2022 at 12:53 AM
      2. crewlucaa_
        crewlucaa_
        Message me if you think it might help… but yes, definitely contact a professional, especially if you’re thinking about suicide. But if you’re having anxiety about death in general, that’s probably something to bring up to a therapist. I have a death phobia too and it’s not easy to deal with :(
        Jan 25, 2022 at 1:14 AM
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      3. UberScout
        UberScout
        I know i'm not the picture of good mental health, but if I can make it this far, so can you, friend. Hang in there.
        Jan 25, 2022 at 1:45 AM
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    6. Markness
      Markness
      How do I know if I am offered a VIP membership?
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      2. Raggamuffin
        Raggamuffin
        I knew in my gut that my comment would trigger that sort of response. I'm not saying females can't be friends with females. I just read these random acts of kindness as having more of a romantic undertone. And yes - I know not everyone is hetero, but in the western world nearly 90% of each gender is hetero. And yes, I know - apparently there's more than 2 genders.
        Jan 25, 2022 at 8:45 AM
      3. Raggamuffin
        Raggamuffin
        Sorry if the tone seems off. I just feel like I need to cover my back here to avoid causing any further confusion or conflict.
        Jan 25, 2022 at 8:45 AM
      4. tree
        tree
        I didn't think of the gesture of gifting V.I.P. memberships as romantic, at all. Still don't.
        Jan 25, 2022 at 8:55 AM
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    7. Markness
      Markness
      I was running late for class but when I got to the campus, I was told a power outage happened so it’s been cancelled for today.
      1. crewlucaa_
        crewlucaa_
        That’s happened to me before lol
        Jan 24, 2022 at 11:28 AM
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      2. tree
        tree
        Is it a M/W class? Or M/W/F? Or what?
        Jan 26, 2022 at 10:55 AM
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      3. Markness
        Markness
        M/W
        Jan 26, 2022 at 1:32 PM
    8. Markness
      Markness
      Ate another vitamin chewable. I actually like the taste of this variety!
      1. tree
        tree
        What flavor? (Also watch out about chewables. Sometimes they have sweeteners in them that can be laxative.)
        Jan 23, 2022 at 10:36 AM
      2. Markness
        Markness
        Lemon. Hmmm…maybe that’s partly why I’ve had to use the toilet a lot lately?
        Jan 23, 2022 at 10:40 AM
    9. Markness
      Markness
      I feel like being mischaracterized as a misogynist and another person wrongfully accusing me of harassing someone has ruined my reputation.
      1. Roxiee
        Roxiee
        I'm sorry
        Jan 23, 2022 at 6:10 AM
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        Thank you
        Jan 23, 2022 at 9:35 AM
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    10. Markness
      Markness
      Took a vitamin D chewable after work.
      1. tree
        tree
        Is that unusual for you?
        Jan 23, 2022 at 8:45 AM
      2. Markness
        Markness
        It is since I normally had to swallow stuff whole.
        Jan 23, 2022 at 9:35 AM
      3. tree
        tree
        The D I have is very small. Gel caps. 2000IU.
        Jan 23, 2022 at 10:12 AM
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    11. Markness
      Markness
      To all those who bullied me as a child and a teen: I hope you’re happy. You got what you wanted and that was for me to suffer.
      1. Raggamuffin
        Raggamuffin
        You seem to be bullying yourself these days.
        Jan 23, 2022 at 2:00 AM
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        My therapist has told me that before.
        Jan 23, 2022 at 10:10 AM
      3. Raggamuffin
        Raggamuffin
        Those traumas and judgements of others can become internalised and then start repeating themselves. I still have parental judgements from many years ago running through my head daily.
        Jan 23, 2022 at 10:51 AM
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    12. Markness
      Markness
      Did I miss a social opportunity? I saw a girl wearing heavy metal fashion but was too nervous to approach her for some historical reasons.
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      2. Raggamuffin
        Raggamuffin
        Missed social opportunity and opted for the default of worrying, hesitancy and avoidance?
        Jan 22, 2022 at 4:18 PM
      3. Markness
        Markness
        I was also at work.
        Jan 23, 2022 at 10:11 AM
      4. tree
        tree
        That's what I had in mind when I said "depends on the circumstances." Work is not a social playground. Probably there could have been an appropriately phrased comment/compliment, though.
        Jan 23, 2022 at 10:14 AM
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    13. Markness
      Markness
      I feel the mouth of infinity devouring me.
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        It’s inspired by a Swans album title.
        Jan 22, 2022 at 10:25 AM
      3. tree
      4. Markness
        Markness
        That’s the one! If you are new to their music, start there! Also, to answer a previous question you asked me, Young God I got from Swans.
        Jan 22, 2022 at 12:44 PM
    14. Markness
      Markness
      Not sure if my stepfather was being sarcastic or not when he replied with “Thanks” after I texted him a classic heavy metal video.
      1. BrokenBoy
        BrokenBoy
        Well metal is often called "dad rock" so maybe it's sincere?
        Jan 21, 2022 at 12:24 PM
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      2. Gerontius
        Gerontius
        Also, hard to tell nuance by text. This is why I don't text much (apart from my phone being a pain to use.) I mean what else was he to text in reply?
        Best not to think abt. this stuff as it is meaningless.
        Jan 21, 2022 at 12:39 PM
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      3. Markness
        Markness
        @BrokenBoy He tends to not like distorted music but I try to show him that just because something is distorted doesn’t mean it’s not musical.

        @Gerontius I suppose so.
        Jan 21, 2022 at 6:34 PM
    15. Markness
      Markness
      Why do I keep feeling like something bad is going to happen to me?
      1. Metalhead
        Metalhead
        Because clinical depression is a beast and you need to start taking better care of yourself.
        Jan 20, 2022
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      2. tree
      3. Markness
        Markness
        I read the article. Depression follows me around and my head as well as throat feel stuffy these days.
        Jan 21, 2022 at 3:47 PM
    16. Markness
      Markness
      I had a nightmare that involved my fears of never having a romantic relationship coming into my life. :(
      1. tree
        tree
        That makes sense. I used to have the classic *here I am in class, it's time for the test, and I haven't been to class in weeks.* or *the paper is due on Monday, it's Friday now and I haven't done any research....* Dreams can be pictures of what concerns us. Sometimes disguised. Sometimes, not so much.
        Jan 20, 2022
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      2. Markness
        Markness
        I sometimes get nightmares that I am still in high school while also still working or I am far away from work and I need to drive there but the time window is small.
        Jan 21, 2022 at 6:35 PM
    17. Markness
      Markness
      I am glad I don’t work today because I still feel pain, especially in my lower back.
    18. Markness
      Markness
      Saw a gray fox resting on the roof of the gazeebo in the backyard!
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      2. crewlucaa_
        crewlucaa_
        I love foxes!!
        Jan 18, 2022
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    19. Markness
      Markness
      I listened to Nirvana’s School before leaving the house.
      1. Raggamuffin
        Raggamuffin
        No recess
        Jan 18, 2022
    20. Markness
      Markness
      I hope once the college course begins that my mind will settle.
      1. Loren likes this.
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