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  • I feel ill and could not get up today despite going to bed right after dinner.
    I want to take today off but our employer said he will not allow us to take a leave of absence easily anymore. Since people abuse this and were taking days off to go to their friends wedding or whatever. Thanks coworkers i guess!
    I am so tired and have a sore throat to boot. I wish there was someone who cared about my mental and physical wellbeing.
    I can't keep up with the speed i am supposed to work at my workplace. It is just too much. I brought work home yet again even though it is holidays. But i am too worn out from socializing for days at the summerhouse i don't have the mental energy to do work at home
    Aneka
    Aneka
    I feel you, I have issues coordinating multiple tasks at once, and reacting adequately in stressful situations... My pace is just a slower one. The world is moving too quickly.
    My family will never be able to accept me as i am and p. sure everyone else won't as well. I feel like a useless retard everytime i am in this summer house
    At this point the only reason i don't like my autism is my inability to migrate to another country due to social difficulties/mental health issues
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I am scared for my future in this country and idk what to do
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    1ofakind
    What country would you move to if you could?
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I guess anywhere that is not a third world country
    Neighbors are so loud at our summerhouse.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    It almost feels like commune life i can hear everything they say and they constantly shout while talking.
    I feel like how i did when i was 17 again. Some media make me feel like that.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I feel like i am back to myself again
    1
    1ofakind
    Is feeling like you are 17 again a good thing for you? Was it three minutes of bliss? (I thought it was a good thing but don't want to make any assumptions)
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Yes it was a good thing. I used to feel alive at that age
    Some guy got really offended when i stopped masking and bluntly said what i mean. Good riddance
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Yeah for some people the slightest disagreement is viewed as a personal offense
    A
    AspieChris
    Wouldn’t it be nice if we could be ourselves and the NT’s all were forced to pretend to be like us? I’ll never understand why I’m expected to say what they want to hear, but they can just say whatever crap is on their mind and I’m just supposed to take it.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Yes, when they do it they do it in a more sly way and protect themselves.
    Exhausted yet again and no one cares
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Sorry to read this AprilR. Is it work?
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    I care. Perpetual exhaustion is so difficult.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Thank you guys. My therapist said i am heading towards burnout
    @Aspychata : yes it is. I don't have much of a life aside from work also since i am too tired to spend time even with my family and my only friend.
    Dad criticizes my handwriting and said i could do better. Um actually no, my handwriting is bad no matter how much effort i put into it.
    Rodafina
    Rodafina
    You are definitely valuable to the world. Absolutely and very much so.
    Kisa the tea
    Kisa the tea
    I'm very much not happy with my handwriting and think it's bad and that's one thing but other people insulting your handwriting just because is so rude.
    Stuttermabolur
    Stuttermabolur
    I have terrible handwriting and write much more down by hand than most everyone I know. At uni, I was the only one who took notes by hand instead of using a laptop. It still hasn't improved even a little since I was 11. Some things you just can't do well.
    Had a bad day. There was an online meeting and my brain stopped working. I could not talk much i was so anxious. I was trembling all over
    I felt like messaging my new friend, but then i got reminded his angry rant for lgbt people and vegans. I don't need such a person in my life
    L
    Luca
    I certainly don't allow people in my life who angrily rant about LGBT people, this is why I no longer talk to my extended family.
    My advice for people is always that if someone is doing you more harm than good, it's best to not have them around.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Yes i was just getting to know him and he started his rant. He also ranted about asexuals, like why do you care? I wish he wasn't a family friend so i could ignore him but he keeps messaging me. He sends audio clips to boot which is also annoying
    I don't feel anything anymore aside from occasional annoyance. Just numb
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Trying to make myself cry since sadness feels more real than happiness
    Aspychata
    Aspychata
    Is work upsetting?
    AprilR
    AprilR
    It is more than that. Constant masking is draining me and life goes too fast without me being able to process what i am feeling
    I am so tired. I really wish there was more help for autistic people here. Like part time work, more time for ourselves, direct and detailed explanations
    At the social security office a worker just told me "why did you come here? You should have known you could ask for this document on the website" I have come to a different city (2 hours far from my city) to get this document and this is what i am told.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    I am tired, thirsty and sleepy. After my work here is done i will return home instead of the office. I don't care anymore. I am too exhausted
    AprilR
    AprilR
    Also the thing that the guy expects me to know, even my employer and other coworkers don't know. So it is not common knowledge.
    I don't like it when i don't respond to a person and they keep messaging me. I understand when people get lonely and want to talk to someone, but you have to respect people's boundaries.
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    1ofakind
    I understand how uncomfortable you must feel with that. I've had situations similarly that weird me out too. If ignoring doesn't work, you may need to be more direct with him or block his number to help alleviate your stress.
    AprilR
    AprilR
    That would be bad since our families are friends. I also need some friends atm but i don't want to constantly talk to someone with whom i dont have much in common with
    1
    1ofakind
    Oh. That is a difficult situation.
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