Unfairness I'd say

It's simply unfair that I had not been appreciated for what I had did.

I had been doing thankless jobs, I had been trying to think the possibilities of doing things the most efficient way that will sustain them as far as they can, yet it's unfair to see me being under-appreciated for any good that I had done.

As you can see, I try to keep a patchwork of diverse elements together through some things that are not so well-understood by others. I even attracted scorn even by understanding friends because they cannot 'feel' anything that will benefit them for the good I am doing.

I feel extremely unfairly perceived. I wished someone can help me. I feel bad because I really want some things in my life...