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The Journey Continues

Hey everybody :)

It's been some time since my first post, and I have learned much since.

I seem to have acquired so much information about AS, that I feel I should soon be graduating from Aspie school, haha, though there's always so much more to learn. Using my newly acquired knowledge, I have been able to spot others around me whom I suspect are also on the spectrum; so far two of them have admitted to me that they do in fact have AS! Imagine my surprise!


Perhaps I'm not so alone in all this after all. Suddenly, I feel a new sense of awe, and all sorts of other warm, and fuzzy feelings, as my eyes are once again opened to a new truth; that there are so many others, all around me, who are just like me. So many others, who have gone through life; hiding in plain sight; battling on in silence. It's an odd feeling; first learning such a life-altering truth about yourself, then to find out just how many others share your same situation.


On another high note, it seems the idea of AS has finally settled with my sister. She still seems to struggle to discuss the subject, so I no longer try to bring it up anymore, but she has shown much more kindness towards me (since a rather large argument we had about AS...and other factors). We had previously fought a lot, but it seems we've reached a place where we're more friendly towards one another. It's a good feeling; I'm hoping pretty hard that it lasts.

For those who read my last post, you may remember that I had planned to attend a retreat in March, for women with AS. Apart from the discovery of AS in family, friends, and of course my Aspie therapist, it was the first time I had ventured out to find a group of other Aspies; up close and personal.

The best way to describe the experience; oddly surreal. It was strange to see so many individuals who were so 'different', yet so oddly familiar. It was almost like our minds were synced, and their thoughts matched up so closely to my own, it was odd. I'm not accustomed to thinking one thing, then having someone else voice my own opinions...at least not with a stranger...it's definitely surreal. It was also rather comical, in that we all shared a desire to connect with one another, yet were all so awkward in our attempts to do so. A social group for anti-social people, ha ha!


While it was exactly what I had expected, it was still a learning experience, and I'm glad to have exposed myself to it. I hope to continue meeting all sorts of other Aspies in future, and will continue on with my quest.

That's it for today; thanks for reading :D

Vanilla
aka. 'Hart'

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You are so fortunate in finding such a community that you can meet with in person. I think I know a little bit about what you mean, though. It was much like when I discovered the Unitarian-Universalist church. I felt like here I didn't have to leave my education at the door, I didn't have to "tone down" my vocabulary so that others would understand, that these were people who were on my level intellectually. It is so hard when you spend most of your time around people who haven't a clue about what you are talking about, who haven't read what you've read or watched what you watched, and who look at you like you have three heads or something when you mention something out of their depths (which is about everything!)
 
Yeah, it was pretty amazing to be able to speak so freely, and not feel so judged. There were quite a few who had a rather advanced vocabulary, and seemed quite happy to express themselves there.

We even spoke of strange Aspie traits that we all shared, and could laugh over; such as taking all day to decide to finally leave the house to do one errand, and leaving it to just before the store closes, because we'd rather stay home, haha.
 
I use a big vocabulary & wait until the last minute to do stuff too. I am glad you have a social group of Aspies you can go to Vanilla. I would love to have that where I live. I am glad you have been able to spot other Aspies & that your sis is being nice to you. I too hope she keeps it up.

I love how you add pictures to your blogs. I know it's a "Vanilla" (Your username) blog. Makes it different from others.

I look forward to your next addition.
 

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