Mom isn't feeling well today and so I am cleaning the house for her. Dad is taking care of sister's diabetes checks today which makes me nervous; he knows how to do it but usually mom does it. I haven't known him to mess up with a ratio in a long time but nonetheless it makes me anxious. But mom wouldn't let him take her out for breakfast on Saturdays sometimes if she didn't trust him to do it right on his own. I'm still nervous nonetheless, and scared for mom cause she can a bad fever yesterday. I don't know what's wrong with her yet.
All of the things going on lately and the pressure i've been under and newly put under today (99% from yours truly rather than anyone else) i've just been doing horribly today. If i'd had any more bandages left i would have self harmed this morning but i don't so i didn't. I did repeatedly hit my head as hard as i could with an empty water bottle when i had a mini anxiety attack though. It hurt but i didn't get a headache so i'm fine. I skipped breakfast because i was so anxious to get as much housework as possible done, since mom is mom and the moment she feels a little better she pushes herself to get up and do housework before she's even ready to get out of bed. I just finished lunch though so that's good. I'll probably play Minecraft for a few hours when i'm done writing this. Dad bought me and sister the city texture pack and we've been having a blast playing with it on Minecraft. Me and sister will probably play it together when she gets home from school.
All of the things going on lately and the pressure i've been under and newly put under today (99% from yours truly rather than anyone else) i've just been doing horribly today. If i'd had any more bandages left i would have self harmed this morning but i don't so i didn't. I did repeatedly hit my head as hard as i could with an empty water bottle when i had a mini anxiety attack though. It hurt but i didn't get a headache so i'm fine. I skipped breakfast because i was so anxious to get as much housework as possible done, since mom is mom and the moment she feels a little better she pushes herself to get up and do housework before she's even ready to get out of bed. I just finished lunch though so that's good. I'll probably play Minecraft for a few hours when i'm done writing this. Dad bought me and sister the city texture pack and we've been having a blast playing with it on Minecraft. Me and sister will probably play it together when she gets home from school.
