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Opened it up like a parcel

By Raggamuffin · Apr 22, 2021 · ·
  1. Two posts in one day? Simmer down sailor.

    I went to get my staff from my car on my lunch break and I saw a beautifully coloured white and grey pigeon stood in the car park. Immediately I knew something was off, as it didn't fly away when I approached.

    As I got closer it finally took off, and I felt a sense of relief. This feeling was short lived however, as I noticed an erratic flight pattern, flying near the windows of the office then flying away and then back. Finally it landed back in the car park. Something wasn't right.

    I approached again, but then decided not to as there was nothing visibly wrong, and I didn't want to disturb the bird. So I went to my car, got my staff and spent a minute or two applying my factor 50 sun cream as that midday sun is strong, especially as I'm a red head.

    When I'd finished I walked back to go into the woods and I saw the pigeon laying face down, dead. I approached cautiously and bent down to take a closer look. A motionless, red eye looked up at me, and what looked like gravel was stuck amongst blood on it's head. On closer inspection I saw entrails sticking out from under one of it's wings.

    I couldn't help but feel pity, as well as confusion. I find such beauty in nature, and yet I encounter a lot of moments that make me feel helpless and upset at nature's indifference towards life.

    When I came back to work I saw a crow eating the bird. I'd kind of hoped a crow would see the corpse, and the timing was nothing short of perfect. How strange I was moved by it's death, and yet I also wished to see other birds use it's corpse as a means to survive themselves. Circle of life I suppose. When I got close the crow flew off and I saw it had entrails clasped in it's beak. Possibly off to feed it's young.

    As I got closer I saw feathers strewn across the car park and I saw the wound the crow had made. The flesh neatly peeled back in segments. I was on the phone to Kristy at the time and exclaimed "Ugh, the crow's opened it up like a parcel." That statement had Kristy laughing and she told me twice to stop looking at the bird. The phone call ended not long after.

    When I walked back into the office, I saw the feathers getting caught in the wind and swirling through the air - almost like snow flakes. I felt a strange sense of beauty and closure in a rather macabre situation.

    Being highly sensitive isn't easy, and yet it makes life a lot more colourful, and intense.

    Ed

    About Author

    Raggamuffin
    Ed, 34, UK

    I'm an underachiever with numerous talents. Exhausted by people and being stuck in the rat race. Unable to shake depression for nearly 2 decades.

    Approaching a year and a half sober. I've undertaken numerous lifestyle changes in recent years. I'd hoped they'd provide some solace from mental health issues. In reality, I know work is my main stressor. 16 years spent in jobs I've never considered careers, or worthy of my time.

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  1. Rahere
    Hm, I had my second AZ innoculation on Monday, a couple of hours later I felt it pass as a wave through my body, rewriting as it went. Strange!