Another early post
My day just barely started and I am already writing about it? ... Not really
In my introduction I called myself a "Muxe" and that was wrong, I was appropriating culture from an indigenous group I'm not a part of and I should not have done so.
I guess I am just looking for a way to express my gender because I'm somewhere in the middle of a man and a woman.
I can't call myself "transgender woman" because I don't live my life a cis woman because I am not one (please don't get into arguments about this, I am talking about MYSELF and not in a general sense)
I know I don't want to identify myself as a "man" because I've never felt like one and deep, deep inside of my heart I know I was never meant to be one.
But... What am I then? I sit somewhere in the middle of both genders with my feminine ways and my changing body...
It's complicated, it is... Because like, I said, I PERSONALLY don't want to put on shoes that don't fit me
I can't fit in the female gender completely because of the gender I was born in, I can't be a woman because I'm not one.
I can't fit in the male gender completely because I never felt like a male, I really like expressing my feminine side and it feels quite natural to me.
Then, what is left? A middle ground between the two I am exploring and failing to express in a healthy way that will feel right for me and my preferred way of living MY life.
Guess I'm just Sofi and that's it... Even if it doesn't say much it feels like who I am... Just another human in this world that decided to chase happiness being authentic to herself...
Still...
Can't help but wonder about what I am... Not a woman, not a man.... Just Sofía, I guess...
Noon update:
Was thinking a lot today if wether I should restart my playthrough project and do them in English this time
Was wondering if I should delete all my already updated videos and restart in English but decided not to, something in my heart told me not to and continue uploading/streaming in Spanish
Discovered this very amazing video I've been listening to and loving every single second of:
It has a lot of music I didn't know existed or have ever heard of and it's good, I was not aware that there were so many amazing bands playing such good music in my country... Sometimes I forget that every place has very amazing musicians and I tend to look I foreign countries...
Anyway, so far so good
Still wondering about my gender identity, but not too worried about my streaming in Spanish
Whatever happens will happen, right?
My day just barely started and I am already writing about it? ... Not really
In my introduction I called myself a "Muxe" and that was wrong, I was appropriating culture from an indigenous group I'm not a part of and I should not have done so.
I guess I am just looking for a way to express my gender because I'm somewhere in the middle of a man and a woman.
I can't call myself "transgender woman" because I don't live my life a cis woman because I am not one (please don't get into arguments about this, I am talking about MYSELF and not in a general sense)
I know I don't want to identify myself as a "man" because I've never felt like one and deep, deep inside of my heart I know I was never meant to be one.
But... What am I then? I sit somewhere in the middle of both genders with my feminine ways and my changing body...
It's complicated, it is... Because like, I said, I PERSONALLY don't want to put on shoes that don't fit me
I can't fit in the female gender completely because of the gender I was born in, I can't be a woman because I'm not one.
I can't fit in the male gender completely because I never felt like a male, I really like expressing my feminine side and it feels quite natural to me.
Then, what is left? A middle ground between the two I am exploring and failing to express in a healthy way that will feel right for me and my preferred way of living MY life.
Guess I'm just Sofi and that's it... Even if it doesn't say much it feels like who I am... Just another human in this world that decided to chase happiness being authentic to herself...
Still...
Can't help but wonder about what I am... Not a woman, not a man.... Just Sofía, I guess...
Noon update:
Was thinking a lot today if wether I should restart my playthrough project and do them in English this time
Was wondering if I should delete all my already updated videos and restart in English but decided not to, something in my heart told me not to and continue uploading/streaming in Spanish
Discovered this very amazing video I've been listening to and loving every single second of:
It has a lot of music I didn't know existed or have ever heard of and it's good, I was not aware that there were so many amazing bands playing such good music in my country... Sometimes I forget that every place has very amazing musicians and I tend to look I foreign countries...
Anyway, so far so good
Still wondering about my gender identity, but not too worried about my streaming in Spanish
Whatever happens will happen, right?
