It's barely noon and my day isn't over yet but decided to post here to let some emotions out
Been a strange day, yesterday I was quite sad and having a lot of dark thoughts and now I'm all sunshines and rainbows
I assume it has to be with the mild hormone therapy I'm doing, which I won't go into detail here because I don't want to get into any confrontational discussions (I don't like conflict much, as inevitable as it is)
Or maybe is just my brain being my brain and throwing random cards to see how I react
Like I said, I've had a couple rough nights with the car and their sound system and loud engine but I am trying to learn that what I can't control shouldn't bother me
It's hard but I think I'm making a LITTLE bit of progress
Strange, tho, yesterday I was very depressed and today I'm like "screw it, whatever" I wrote it like that because idk if I should or am allowed to use profanity even on my blog.
It's a pretty day and I'm eating again (yesterday my brain decided that I shouldn't eat so I didn't) looking forward to eating potato chips later today
Been playing DOOM II: Hell On Earth because, on my stream I really wanted to show the secret Wolfenstein level but couldn't remember by the life of me how to get there
The day is pretty and I just saw a pretty bird out my window (a sparrow I think) but haven't seen the red Finch that sometimes comes to eat berries... We'll see how the day goes on
Oh yeah, my mom wants to be "supportive" and all she does is confront me and threatens me...
I KNOW I should go to therapy but what's the use if theres no support here? She thinks they therapy is magic pill that will fix everything but if you're in a bad place, therapy won't do anything to help
Anyway... That's my only rant today I think... Maybe I'll rant some more later LOL
Been a strange day, yesterday I was quite sad and having a lot of dark thoughts and now I'm all sunshines and rainbows
I assume it has to be with the mild hormone therapy I'm doing, which I won't go into detail here because I don't want to get into any confrontational discussions (I don't like conflict much, as inevitable as it is)
Or maybe is just my brain being my brain and throwing random cards to see how I react
Like I said, I've had a couple rough nights with the car and their sound system and loud engine but I am trying to learn that what I can't control shouldn't bother me
It's hard but I think I'm making a LITTLE bit of progress
Strange, tho, yesterday I was very depressed and today I'm like "screw it, whatever" I wrote it like that because idk if I should or am allowed to use profanity even on my blog.
It's a pretty day and I'm eating again (yesterday my brain decided that I shouldn't eat so I didn't) looking forward to eating potato chips later today
Been playing DOOM II: Hell On Earth because, on my stream I really wanted to show the secret Wolfenstein level but couldn't remember by the life of me how to get there
The day is pretty and I just saw a pretty bird out my window (a sparrow I think) but haven't seen the red Finch that sometimes comes to eat berries... We'll see how the day goes on
Oh yeah, my mom wants to be "supportive" and all she does is confront me and threatens me...
I KNOW I should go to therapy but what's the use if theres no support here? She thinks they therapy is magic pill that will fix everything but if you're in a bad place, therapy won't do anything to help
Anyway... That's my only rant today I think... Maybe I'll rant some more later LOL
