All the supervisors save one are the strict, serious type that i can't read at all. Even if i get complimented four times in one weekend by customers even one mistake in front of them makes me feel like i'm back to square one. Bubba, the almost two year old i babysit, his parents want to put him in a preschool. The local one has a program for two to three year olds and they're going to the open house next month. Even though the boy's dad already said their work schedules might get in the way of him attending, with some of their stricter rules around parent pick ups...i still feel like they must just secretly think i'm not good enough and won't tell me until its too late to fix anything like my mom always has! I mean i know his going to preschool is inevitable...and i know that at that point they'd probabaly have to find someone else cause the chances of me driving by then is slim to none. I'd have to learn to judge distances in a car while driving, and learn to process while i'm driving, and get a car, all before whenever they chose to put him in preschool. That could be as soon as January or as soon as he's potty trained, i don't know the preschool's rules. I know its a 2-3 class but i also heard most places stipulate that the child is potty trained first. Granted, the place also takes infants so i'm not sure.
I just feel like i'm gonna lose everything cause i'm not good enough, don't perform well enough. I always feel like this one supervisor is mad at me (whether she actually is or not i can't tell) and the other one is nice but to the point and the one girl is actually fairly nice but i see more of the other two. And now i feel like just because some afternoons bubba's mom comes home to him still in his PJs not having gone outside at all that week i'll lose him. I've babysat that kid since he was two months old, he's like a baby brother to me. I know they usually communicate when they want me to do something, they always have, but would they really tell me if they want to replace me with a preschool program i dont know. I wouldn't be able to take him, that's for sure. They'd have to either not send him to preschool, find someone else to drive him, or just find a new sitter altogether. Its only three days a week, they said. The preschool program.
I can easily teach him whatever he needs to know, hell i helped teach him his letters and i've been working with him on his shapes and colors. My mom did preschool with all of us at home and we've all been fine in school. I could do it for bubba, i'd love it. But i don't want to suggest it, i'd feel like i'm being desperate and clingy. I'd love to teach him though. He absorbs anything you tell him, even if its just the names of the whales and seahorses on his lunch plate.
I just feel like i'm gonna lose everything cause i'm not good enough, don't perform well enough. I always feel like this one supervisor is mad at me (whether she actually is or not i can't tell) and the other one is nice but to the point and the one girl is actually fairly nice but i see more of the other two. And now i feel like just because some afternoons bubba's mom comes home to him still in his PJs not having gone outside at all that week i'll lose him. I've babysat that kid since he was two months old, he's like a baby brother to me. I know they usually communicate when they want me to do something, they always have, but would they really tell me if they want to replace me with a preschool program i dont know. I wouldn't be able to take him, that's for sure. They'd have to either not send him to preschool, find someone else to drive him, or just find a new sitter altogether. Its only three days a week, they said. The preschool program.
I can easily teach him whatever he needs to know, hell i helped teach him his letters and i've been working with him on his shapes and colors. My mom did preschool with all of us at home and we've all been fine in school. I could do it for bubba, i'd love it. But i don't want to suggest it, i'd feel like i'm being desperate and clingy. I'd love to teach him though. He absorbs anything you tell him, even if its just the names of the whales and seahorses on his lunch plate.
