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Hatred of life

I only ever wanted to feel safe but never did not even as a child. I knew i was different and dirty and always made to feel like that. I am not surprised that i imagined my parents were not my real parents and that my real parents have died in a fire. I never felt close to neither of them and never felt safe. Even now i don't.

I will never feel safe until i die.

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