Creating a drip feed of toxic hormones and neurochemicals into my system with repetitive thought loops over a senario that's already passed and there's nothing I can do to change the outcome for my young adult son.
He left school, left home and lived his dream (flew through the 8months of intensive training to become a proud "Royal" - Marine, not HRH)
Until a benefit scrounging, career breeding pot noodle was slutty enough to get her expensive, false claws into him.(false claws paid for by tax payers)
When training to be a midwife, she became pregnant with my grandson, who she uses as ammunition, bait, manipulation,
How does a trainee midwife 'accidently' become pregnant?
Short lived uni course (paid for by tax payers) and another child to add to her brood.
For six years she issued ultimatum after ultimatum "leave the Marines or you'll never see your son"
Never followed through.
I never could quite get a 'read' on her. Didn't understand her or her outlook on life, morals, beliefs, core values.
She succeeded in playing a huge part in swaying the decision to get him kicked out of the Marines.
He is no saint.
Most of his shenanigans whilst serving didn't go in his favour.
Her unnecessary 'snitching' was a low blow and Drew attention to a situation that didn't need to be brought to light.
Could have been rectified quietly, no harm done to any person or property. Simple to correct.
He comes home for good next week.
I say"for good" he has to be on the move like a feather on a breeze so I think he will stay temporarily until he finds his next direction, path, idea to follow up.
One thing about him, he says "you know what, I want to be a .....whatever ...and then, like a dog with a favourite stick, won't let go until he nails it.
If I was a praying sort, I'd pray for Karma to get 'a wriggle on' and deliver faster than I am tempted to.
I grit my teeth in annoyance due to her lack of loyalty and her sly, psychotic-hell-cat, tactics in getting her own way. (Determined to see him out of the Marines) -( made it her goal to achieve this) -(obsessed)
He did most of the work himself, she just tipped the scales because she knew she could.
I could be the grown up and let it go, rise above. After all it isn't me that's been wronged. "Not my monkey, not my problem"
I'll just sit here gritting my teeth, stewing in a cocktail of unhealthy neurochemicals wanting to fight fire with fire when tomorrow, or later on today, I'll probably decide that water, sand or a fire extinguisher would be a better tool to fight fire with.
I can see her smug, victorious face in my minds eye and want to rearrange that expression for her.
Or I could just start to feel really excited that I get to spend some time with my son again. Learn his grown up mannerisms, laugh at his style of humour, have him teach me more dubious card games. (Poker-face, I have) and be amused at his diplomatic comments and encouragement on trying to teach me how to play acoustic guitar
I'm smiling and feel better already.
He left school, left home and lived his dream (flew through the 8months of intensive training to become a proud "Royal" - Marine, not HRH)
Until a benefit scrounging, career breeding pot noodle was slutty enough to get her expensive, false claws into him.(false claws paid for by tax payers)
When training to be a midwife, she became pregnant with my grandson, who she uses as ammunition, bait, manipulation,
How does a trainee midwife 'accidently' become pregnant?
Short lived uni course (paid for by tax payers) and another child to add to her brood.
For six years she issued ultimatum after ultimatum "leave the Marines or you'll never see your son"
Never followed through.
I never could quite get a 'read' on her. Didn't understand her or her outlook on life, morals, beliefs, core values.
She succeeded in playing a huge part in swaying the decision to get him kicked out of the Marines.
He is no saint.
Most of his shenanigans whilst serving didn't go in his favour.
Her unnecessary 'snitching' was a low blow and Drew attention to a situation that didn't need to be brought to light.
Could have been rectified quietly, no harm done to any person or property. Simple to correct.
He comes home for good next week.
I say"for good" he has to be on the move like a feather on a breeze so I think he will stay temporarily until he finds his next direction, path, idea to follow up.
One thing about him, he says "you know what, I want to be a .....whatever ...and then, like a dog with a favourite stick, won't let go until he nails it.
If I was a praying sort, I'd pray for Karma to get 'a wriggle on' and deliver faster than I am tempted to.
I grit my teeth in annoyance due to her lack of loyalty and her sly, psychotic-hell-cat, tactics in getting her own way. (Determined to see him out of the Marines) -( made it her goal to achieve this) -(obsessed)
He did most of the work himself, she just tipped the scales because she knew she could.
I could be the grown up and let it go, rise above. After all it isn't me that's been wronged. "Not my monkey, not my problem"
I'll just sit here gritting my teeth, stewing in a cocktail of unhealthy neurochemicals wanting to fight fire with fire when tomorrow, or later on today, I'll probably decide that water, sand or a fire extinguisher would be a better tool to fight fire with.
I can see her smug, victorious face in my minds eye and want to rearrange that expression for her.
Or I could just start to feel really excited that I get to spend some time with my son again. Learn his grown up mannerisms, laugh at his style of humour, have him teach me more dubious card games. (Poker-face, I have) and be amused at his diplomatic comments and encouragement on trying to teach me how to play acoustic guitar
I'm smiling and feel better already.
