Wowza first post... Let's see, I'll start by saying that in my "Introduce Yourself" post I mentioned that I didn't have enough info to label myself as anything just yet, and I'd like to add to that by saying that a lot of it has to do with me being hesitant because of self-doubt. I have taken the RDOS and my results were in the neuroatypical range. I can post that later I suppose. Oh, and keep forgetting to mention that I'm 16! That should be it for the intro, now onto my first real post!
I've started to notice that people don't necessarily want to hear me talk about things I enjoy? I figured half of it out after my dad got mad at me and mentioned something about having to hear me talk "obsessively" about one thing. I worried about it, because I hadn't noticed I was talking about it, much less annoying him. So I tried it out with my mom once, and in a lapse, she was quiet and said "Yeah... so anyway-" and changed the subject. I'm hurt by this a little bit, considering how above and beyond they went for my brother when he became interested in geology. He got to pick family trips plenty of times, and they all had to do with mining. It came to the point where my parents asked me where I wanted to go because they didn't want to make it seem like they favored him over me. I'm not a very needy person, and I would much rather collect and pick up small things I find than have someone buy things for me, so I either declined or said what my brother wanted. I thought this would make a sort of savings account of opportunity, that if I declined now they would surely go along with what I wanted in the future. This turned out to not be the case. All in all, I'm upset and don't really know how to process this or talk about it with my therapist, because we started talking about something different last time. Wow, that felt good to put into words!
I've started to notice that people don't necessarily want to hear me talk about things I enjoy? I figured half of it out after my dad got mad at me and mentioned something about having to hear me talk "obsessively" about one thing. I worried about it, because I hadn't noticed I was talking about it, much less annoying him. So I tried it out with my mom once, and in a lapse, she was quiet and said "Yeah... so anyway-" and changed the subject. I'm hurt by this a little bit, considering how above and beyond they went for my brother when he became interested in geology. He got to pick family trips plenty of times, and they all had to do with mining. It came to the point where my parents asked me where I wanted to go because they didn't want to make it seem like they favored him over me. I'm not a very needy person, and I would much rather collect and pick up small things I find than have someone buy things for me, so I either declined or said what my brother wanted. I thought this would make a sort of savings account of opportunity, that if I declined now they would surely go along with what I wanted in the future. This turned out to not be the case. All in all, I'm upset and don't really know how to process this or talk about it with my therapist, because we started talking about something different last time. Wow, that felt good to put into words!
