Yesterday was my birthday, and it was pretty bad most of the day because I was so tense and anxious my back hurt. I spent almost the entire workday goofing off in my lab trying to escape how awful I was feeling.
In the evening I went down to the public library and checked out the movie Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs, and retreated home to watch it after dinner. I like animated films more than live-action ones. I like some live-action ones too, but it's like my artistic side appreciates animation far more than live people walking around. I also like kids' movies because my tolerance for violence is low and I don't like watching people kiss on screen, let alone doing anything more intimate.
The movie was corny and sometimes downright ridiculous (the technobabble was exceptionally bad) but it earned my approval by having a romance storyline I actually "felt" for. I do not like conventional romance at all - I do not understand the reasons people like each other and the way they interact. The only other movie I've seen where I really like the romance part is Howl's Moving Castle.
The reason I liked Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs is that the main character is nerdy, and he likes this girl because she keeps saying all of these ridiculously nerdy, specific things (kind of like what I do when I start babbling about biology). He's so awkward inviting her out because he's shy and has no practice, but he tells her that she looks more attractive with glasses.
Please find me somebody like this in real life. My family is always on my case about my appearance - I should wear contacts, dress more attractively, wear high-heeled shoes, wear makeup, stop saying I like skinning dead things, once I think I even got told to stop being smart and fierce! But I would rather somebody liked me for who I am. (Although half the reason I still wear glasses is that I'm afraid of change, and I don't want to have to field the comments everyone would make about it.)
I got sad last night because I would like a mate but I cannot find one because I am shy and smart and weird.
Oh well. By the way, I got a Target Gift Card and I can't decide whether I want to use it to buy something practical for my apartment, or Starcraft 2. I'm temped to do the latter, but I feel guilty about it. I'll wait until next week to see if I still really want it.
In the evening I went down to the public library and checked out the movie Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs, and retreated home to watch it after dinner. I like animated films more than live-action ones. I like some live-action ones too, but it's like my artistic side appreciates animation far more than live people walking around. I also like kids' movies because my tolerance for violence is low and I don't like watching people kiss on screen, let alone doing anything more intimate.
The movie was corny and sometimes downright ridiculous (the technobabble was exceptionally bad) but it earned my approval by having a romance storyline I actually "felt" for. I do not like conventional romance at all - I do not understand the reasons people like each other and the way they interact. The only other movie I've seen where I really like the romance part is Howl's Moving Castle.
The reason I liked Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs is that the main character is nerdy, and he likes this girl because she keeps saying all of these ridiculously nerdy, specific things (kind of like what I do when I start babbling about biology). He's so awkward inviting her out because he's shy and has no practice, but he tells her that she looks more attractive with glasses.
Please find me somebody like this in real life. My family is always on my case about my appearance - I should wear contacts, dress more attractively, wear high-heeled shoes, wear makeup, stop saying I like skinning dead things, once I think I even got told to stop being smart and fierce! But I would rather somebody liked me for who I am. (Although half the reason I still wear glasses is that I'm afraid of change, and I don't want to have to field the comments everyone would make about it.)
I got sad last night because I would like a mate but I cannot find one because I am shy and smart and weird.
Oh well. By the way, I got a Target Gift Card and I can't decide whether I want to use it to buy something practical for my apartment, or Starcraft 2. I'm temped to do the latter, but I feel guilty about it. I'll wait until next week to see if I still really want it.
