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Day to Day Life

  1. Back after an extended absence

    I wrote my last blog post here four years ago. At that time, I was working on myself, improving, and exploring new opportunities in my life, and I reached the personal conclusion that I was likely not actually on the spectrum. Four weird years later--yeah, I'm on the spectrum. At the time, I associated my weirdness with being an "empath", or having "clairs"--clairaudience, claircognizance, clairsentience. All of that is *sort of* the case still, though it's become much weirder than (and...
  2. Blog 2: Two & Half Years Ago...

    It's been two years and a half since I last been on Autism Forums. Here's an update if you guys care to look!
  3. Started learning the local language

    My spouse relocated to my country. We have at least three languages used here; I repeat, THREE LANGUAGES!! English for work (we are not from English-speaking countries), Another local language for communication with the locals, And another foreign language for religious culture purpose (yes, we want to practice our beliefs). ..and my spouse is a level 1 (out of 100 or 1k levels) beginner at all of these languages.. Can you imagine how hard it is for an aspie, who relocated to a...
  4. Exhaustion

    I’m exhausted. I’m drained all the time. I’m really struggling to hold it together. The evenings are the hardest times for me. I can’t run away any longer, so I’m stuck wide awake with only myself for company. I don’t know how to cope with this. I’m so tense, and my fear of relaxing coupled with the possibility I could relax so much that I lose control makes me rigid with panic and stress. Nighttime is scary. I’m not functioning well after dark. I don’t know how to keep going. I’m triggered...
  5. Today was a good day

    My day started slowly. I couldn't get out of bed until 9 a.m., until I got a call from my mom and dad who are on holiday in Asia. It cheered me up to see them. I was watching some DIY decor and DIY thrift store clothing upgrade videos on YouTube by the channel TheSorryGirls (I very much recommend!) and it gave me motivation to go to the thrift store myself. My to do list was as follows: get ready quickly (even though I felt like spending a lot of time putting on make-up and choosing...
  6. Can't human today

    I'm having a particularly difficult day today. I'm sorry I keep coming and going from these forums... I just have been going through these phases lately where I'm not social at all, anywhere, don't even crack open my laptop. And then sometimes I hyperfocus on a particular group or something. Whatever... I feel like I'm such a giant mess. I don't feel like I'm recovering in any kind of way. I know I am, but the progress is so slow, it's barely noticeable. I'm still not working, not going to...
  7. Stopping meds due to side effects, living with effects of long term meds

    I have been off medications since February this year. I was prescribed Seroquel for a BPD dx and Topamax for seizures (I've been misdxed as BPD) I was on Seroquel for around 5 years and it was not helping anymore. I wanted to come off of it for a long time. I have been taking Topamax for over 15 years. I started looking into the side effect of Topamax when I found out the side effects of Seroquel. I was floored and so mad that no one told me about the side effects of either med. A lot of...
  8. Adopted father has cancer, I'm not sad but feel guilty

    [Already posted in Forums] I found out that my adopted father has lymphoma and I don't feel sad. I was abused and have stopped talking to most of the adopted family. I didn't feel happy finding out but I wasn't sad either. I don't know if this is because of autism or trauma. I do feel anxiety and guilt because I'm not sad and I'm worried I'll have a huge meltdown when he passes. I am going to see him next week, I haven't seen him in years. I'm afraid of the emotions hitting me when I need...
  9. A Confusing Development

    For some reason, it's only just occurred to me to look up social anxiety. After hearing about the comparisons, the minimization, all of that, I actually looked up what it was. The scary and comforting thing is, is that I relate to that a lot. Who knew there was an actual name for the fear I feel when presented with social situations? But on top of that, I'm afraid of what that says about me. I've been thinking that autism was the one thing that could explain why I felt different and pushed...
  10. A Good Time, but at What Cost??

    Cool news, I saw a musical last night! I'd been following it for a bit, and I finally got to see it on Broadway!! I had a really great time, especially clapping and stimming in between songs! It was a bit loud though, and that contributed to the problem later. See, we got home around 3 AM, and I went immediately to sleep. But now, I'm very drained. Emotionally, physically, mentally. I planned on doing some school work later today, but I don't know if I'll be able to get rid of the numb-like...
  11. Just a Little Curious!

    I've decided that I'll ask the school's therapist about ASD and such. But I had a question. Has anyone else ever experienced a thing where if something feels wrong, like dirty or unright, they shudder and have to let go if it immediately? I've experienced this while in Piano class, touching the piano used by other students, and other small items. They don't usually have a particular pattern. I'm sure this isn't an OCD thing, or anything else, but I was wondering if any else knew what I was...
  12. Kitten's Birthday

    My kitten is turning one year old tomorrow! Time passes quickly, it doesnt feel like it was almost a year ago when she was a few weeks old.
  13. Confused and Kind of Upset?

    I don't believe my current therapist is working out for me. I'm supposed to trust him, but I don't. I haven't trusted the previous one either. My only question is, how long will it take, and what will it take for me to trust them? Trust seems to be an issue with me, even with ordinary stuff like what music I listen to. There doesn't seem to be any other therapists close enough to drive biweekly to, and that doesn't even cover the cost of the actual session. But, back to trust though. Do...
  14. Agh...

    So, I went to the dentist today after a while. Being in the chair reminded me of an earlier time I went, when I was about 6 or 7, I believe. When the dentist was taking X-Rays, the bite-down bit hurt so much I cried, and wouldn't let them put it back in. It still hurts! And, come to find out, I have cavities? 3 of them, apparently. I'll try to floss more. And, my head hurts a lot. I don't know if it was because of the light, the pain, or something else, but I'm not feeling good at all....
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