My two weeks journey in South India are almost finished, time to go back home.
Feel really tired today and making a big effort to keep it together, pretending I am good, keeping all to myself and feeling completely disconnected from everyone. Can not handle it any other way.
Some people asked me today how I am, I guess they can see that something is off but I just smile and say I am ok...sad to be leaving India...and then I ask how they are and they start happily talking about themselves and forget all about me.
It is not difficult to trick them.
So here I am writing this blog while everyone else is socialising while we wait for the farewell meeting.
I just...(do not know how to express in English), to endure it I just disconnect from everything and everyone to the point of becoming insensitive and irresponsive(does this word exists?)
It is like the only way I can handle too much emotion is to completely ignore it...one extrem to the other.
Anyway, enjoyed India, enjoy going back home.
‘The Great Observer always observes life and sees how life is going on. Your true Self, the Atma, is always observing life from within you.’ — Paramahamsa Vishwananda
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