I saw a cigarette today. It was on the ground in the beach. To some, this is just litter. But to me, it was profound. It was not profound because of what it is or why it is there, but rather, of what it stands for. A cigarette was made for enjoyment but it does not last forever. It was cast away when the going got rough for everyone to see.
That is like me. My parents wanted a normal, happy boy, but instead got this empty shell of a person. If I was normal, maybe they would be happy and we would be a family; we are a time bomb waiting to explode. Everyday, I do not get beaten. I do not get beaten because I am numb.
I am numb not because I want to be, but because I do not know what it is like to feel. Love is not something I've very much felt. It is just a word. It's like life - everyone has it but me. I deserve it too.
If I do not know love, but I surely know hate. I know that feeling well. Everywhere around me there is its ugly head. It is in me too. I am hateful because everyone is hateful to me. I am simply a mirror of society.
That is like me. My parents wanted a normal, happy boy, but instead got this empty shell of a person. If I was normal, maybe they would be happy and we would be a family; we are a time bomb waiting to explode. Everyday, I do not get beaten. I do not get beaten because I am numb.
I am numb not because I want to be, but because I do not know what it is like to feel. Love is not something I've very much felt. It is just a word. It's like life - everyone has it but me. I deserve it too.
If I do not know love, but I surely know hate. I know that feeling well. Everywhere around me there is its ugly head. It is in me too. I am hateful because everyone is hateful to me. I am simply a mirror of society.
